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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 21.06.2025 08:12

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She was in good health!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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I think the readers, may guess!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She found it foreign!.

What does the stink of the skunk look like? Why would it be dangerous?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

This is soul school!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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I was very sick at this time too.

Im still living with it.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But it wasn’t much.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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I never cut or harmed myself..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Who then, do I blame.?

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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She married twice! .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I will be 64.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He knew the spot.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

It was going to be , some day.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

When she asked me how she looked .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Ive learnt so much.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

So, i spoilt her more .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Especially a lifetime of it.

My family never makes their pension either.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was 9 years of age.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I don,t even have a pension.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why did i forgive my father ?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But, we were locked up after school.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Put me off passion for life!!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

All the time i was locked up.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I said to her

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Was to survive, this bastard.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I write beautiful poetry .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I have no regrets .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I was scared of men, in general

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We all went to grammer schools

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She wouldn,t have been !

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I waited trembling.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She loved him until the end.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One cannot live in the past .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My life is so biszare .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i do to all so called friends.?

What did i know ?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

So whats the point in blame.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Comes on , in middle age.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was seconnd youngest,

And i lived it daily.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

We were not on the streets..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Would this be the day?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!